Meet me under the city lights

I love her to death . . .

. . . but she drives me up the wall sometimes!! She has this way of saying un-nice things in a very nice tone. I can give so many examples of this. Like how she will say stuff like, "You'd be so much prettier if you were not so skinny" and then she would turn to my little sister and say, "You'd be so pretty if you lost some weight." My poor sister is only in middle school and sometimes I can't help but think that she's trying to shed some weight. Whenever I ask her if she's hungry, she'll always respond with a "No." And trust me, she's not fat.

My mother nags me about almost everything. It annoys me but I try not to act frustrated at her. She has this power to guilt-trip me and make me feel bad about things in my life. Do all mothers possess this guilt trip power?

She has never been a careful constructer of words. She doesn't think before she says certain things. She has the best intentions, but those intentions come out all wrong.

I think all Asian mothers are like this. It's in their DNA. I hope I don't become a naggy pessimistic-sounding mom some day. But how do you control and undo what you have already learned and what is psychologically instilled?

I have to love my mom though. I think I put her through hell. She told me I was always a difficult child. She was in labor with me for three days. She says my stubbornness to stay in the womb is the same stubbornness that stuck with me throughout my life.